We Need Your Help

Dear Friends,

We're slightly hesitant to write this on our blog as we try to keep it more of a light-hearted and happy place for us to escape the difficult things we are going through. This is anything but a light subject, so we hope writing it here doesn't automatically make it one. Taking the advice of a friend, and with the promptings that keep coming to us, we feel like this is the place and time to share our feelings on this tender subject.

As some of you may, or may not know, KC and I have been eagerly hoping for over two years to have a child. We found out a while after we started trying that our only hope for conceiving was through In Vitro Fertilization. And not only that, but a more extensive technique they add to it that they have come up with in the last decade or so. We had mixed feelings about this. We were extremely relieved and happy to have a chance at having biological children when 10 years ago they would've said there is no possible way. But we were also a little scared about this idea. It's extremely expensive, and doesn't always work. And with it being the only way for us to conceive, it was hard to completely give up that part of our lives to all the many professionals that it requires, instead of just being between the two of us. But we were willing to do whatever it took, so we excitedly and apprehensively agreed to continue. It is a long a very difficult process, but we tried to stay focused and faithful since at the time we completely relied on this to build our family biologically. Since we began the IVF process, we have had two (update: three) devastating negative pregnancy tests. Even a negative pregnancy test when you are trying on your own is hard, so maybe you can imagine the disappointment. The doctors went from pure optimism to very confused. We are learning that we can't rely on it. It's been the trial of our lives and we've been making with through with a lot of support from our families, friends, and of course our Heavenly Father. I have a lot more thoughts on the subject of IVF and infertility in general that I want to share, but it is not the purpose of this post, so I'll revisit that another time.

So as KC and I have been talking to each other, my friend (mentioned above), and Heavenly Father, we feel that we are ready to take the steps toward adoption. We have a lot of the same feelings as we did before-excited, scared, apprehensive-since this is also pretty much out of our control. It can also be a very grueling process with a lot of ups and downs, and we were wondering where to start. The friend I talked to and her husband were under the same circumstances as us and adopted all five of their children. Her advice, and how she got 4 of her children, was purely by word of mouth. She told everyone she came in contact with, strangers included, that they were looking for a baby. Before talking to her, I thought we wouldn't be taken seriously if we took this route. That no one would believe that we were legitimate. But after hearing of her success, I am a believer and am willing to try.

This is where we need you. We are in a day and age where news is easy to spread with the Internet, thus writing this post. So if it's not too much, I'm asking that any of you reading to spread the word that we are eagerly looking to adopt a baby. If there is anyone you know that is going to place their child up for adoption, please let us know. We are on a mission to start our family, and really feel that this is a way for us to get some results. We have so much love to give, and dream of the day that we have a child in our lives. We hope that through this, it can become a reality. Again, we know there are other avenues of adoption, but we feel that this is where we should start for the time being. (Update: we have been approved with LDS Family Services and are adopting through them.)

Thank you in advance. Even in the midst of a trial so great, we have been able to see why we are given such things to endure. We have been blessed, with so many great people in our lives, and even more apparently, with each other. With out a companion so dedicated and faithful, it's hard to make it through even the smallest of trials. So this has made us closer to each other and the Lord. If you find out anything you'd like to share with us, please email me us KCandEmily@hotmail.com. We appreciate your help more than you can ever know.

Love, KC and Emily